| I've been just screwing up this semester and I don't know why. I've been trying so hard but I don't exactly know why because it feels so pointless because I like learning but grades are so annoying, they interfere with learning. But now I know where I want to go. I decided tonight that I really really want to go to Harvard and do MD/Phd in neuroscience because I decided that doing research and some clinical medicine is exactly what I want. And they are doing research at Harvard in the exact neuro field I am very interested in. I wish I could just drop out and go there right now but I have to learn the basics first, and since I've been screwing up a lot lately I don't even know if I would be able to get in, although I know Winer will tell me that he's going to write me the best letter of recommendation to try and get me in when the time comes, but I still need two more letters plus MCAT and shit like that. Maybe that now I know where I want to go I can focus and try and actually work towards something. Who knows. |
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